Under pressure

I'm having one of those days where I'm feeling really overwhelmed. Our wedding is under 9 months away (I would say 8 1/2 but that stresses me out to much) and I feel like I haven't gotten enough accomplished. For example: we still don't have a florist, or any idea who is going to marry us, we haven't even finalized our invite list... just to name a few.

I also all of the sudden have this feeling that I need to create this perfect wedding that is beautiful, trendy, and so dang amazing style me pretty will be begging me to feature it on their blog.

I really don't know where this came from. I've always thought of myself as a pretty laid back, less is more kind of girl. I didn't want to stress over too much for the wedding so I decided early on that I was going to keep everything simple and laid back...or so I thought.

I think maybe I've spent too much time "researching" and looking for inspiration on sites that now just have me confused. All these vintage inspired weddings look like they're using muted colors and we're using bright orange, maybe it's going to clash? Maybe my idea for ticket escort cards isn't cool enough, this person used vintage post cards, maybe my favor ideas suck. Doubt is creeping in!

And like I said before, I feel so behind, too far behind to be second guessing the ideas I am(was) happy with. I feel like I'm stuck in indecisive quicksand and I'm drowning in decisions that need to be made!

I got ready for bed feeling very stressed, my mind racing. My fiancé looked at me and said, "You look stressed." So I told him how I felt we haven't gotten enough done, blah blah blah. He suggested we make a list of things to do this month. I thought, yes that is a good idea but it doesn't make me feel any better. I didn't feel like we'll get any more accomplished with a list. I said, "I just feel like I have so much to do with work, auditioning, wedding planning, and I really have no time to do it." So he said in a sweet voice "Then don't do anything." I gave him a look like I could kill you but you're too cute, and he continued, "If you don't have time to do anything then just don't do anything."

This would have probably made some girls furious, but for me it made me laugh and got me out of my funk for the night. It just goes to show he's the one for me, he listens, he gives advice and then makes me laugh it off.

So I'm sitting here thinking I need to embrace what we have envisioned for this wedding. It might not be perfect, and it might not be some people's cup of tea, but it's our wedding and I shouldn't care. I love bright colors, so there will be bright colors. I love vintage elements, so there will be some of that too. I will try and not compare my wedding, that hasn't even taken place, with those I see online. I will also move forward and make more important decisions, like who's going to marry us! That's a big one!

And here's a pretty orange picture!

 Image via theknot.com

Do you ever feel like maybe your vision isn't "good" enough? Or am I just crazy.. Well I'll admit I can be a little crazy. What do you do to get yourself out of a funk? Does your fiancé help?