Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Under pressure

I'm having one of those days where I'm feeling really overwhelmed. Our wedding is under 9 months away (I would say 8 1/2 but that stresses me out to much) and I feel like I haven't gotten enough accomplished. For example: we still don't have a florist, or any idea who is going to marry us, we haven't even finalized our invite list... just to name a few.

I also all of the sudden have this feeling that I need to create this perfect wedding that is beautiful, trendy, and so dang amazing style me pretty will be begging me to feature it on their blog.

I really don't know where this came from. I've always thought of myself as a pretty laid back, less is more kind of girl. I didn't want to stress over too much for the wedding so I decided early on that I was going to keep everything simple and laid back...or so I thought.

I think maybe I've spent too much time "researching" and looking for inspiration on sites that now just have me confused. All these vintage inspired weddings look like they're using muted colors and we're using bright orange, maybe it's going to clash? Maybe my idea for ticket escort cards isn't cool enough, this person used vintage post cards, maybe my favor ideas suck. Doubt is creeping in!

And like I said before, I feel so behind, too far behind to be second guessing the ideas I am(was) happy with. I feel like I'm stuck in indecisive quicksand and I'm drowning in decisions that need to be made!

I got ready for bed feeling very stressed, my mind racing. My fiancé looked at me and said, "You look stressed." So I told him how I felt we haven't gotten enough done, blah blah blah. He suggested we make a list of things to do this month. I thought, yes that is a good idea but it doesn't make me feel any better. I didn't feel like we'll get any more accomplished with a list. I said, "I just feel like I have so much to do with work, auditioning, wedding planning, and I really have no time to do it." So he said in a sweet voice "Then don't do anything." I gave him a look like I could kill you but you're too cute, and he continued, "If you don't have time to do anything then just don't do anything."

This would have probably made some girls furious, but for me it made me laugh and got me out of my funk for the night. It just goes to show he's the one for me, he listens, he gives advice and then makes me laugh it off.

So I'm sitting here thinking I need to embrace what we have envisioned for this wedding. It might not be perfect, and it might not be some people's cup of tea, but it's our wedding and I shouldn't care. I love bright colors, so there will be bright colors. I love vintage elements, so there will be some of that too. I will try and not compare my wedding, that hasn't even taken place, with those I see online. I will also move forward and make more important decisions, like who's going to marry us! That's a big one!

And here's a pretty orange picture!
 Image via theknot.com

Do you ever feel like maybe your vision isn't "good" enough? Or am I just crazy.. Well I'll admit I can be a little crazy. What do you do to get yourself out of a funk? Does your fiancé help?

2 comments:

  1. I'm with you girl. Every time open my blog reader I'm bombarded with beautiful pictures by amazing photographers and I feel like a loser who's wedding will be dumb. Then one day while I was drooling over a shower party (yup, someone's friggin shower!) I realized that real like doesn't look like that. Real life looks like real life and those photos are just a some photographer's art. Angles, photoshop, lighting, whatever.

    So forget everyone else. Forget their garden weddings with mason jars and wild flowers. Forget their antique dishes and organic baked favors. Your ideas are perfect for your wedding because they reflect who you are! And that's what it's all about.

    Kudos to your fiance for being the man of your dreams! And don't worry about getting things done. They will get done!

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  2. It's going to be wonderful - and exactly what YOU and your Fiance WANT. Don't worry about anyone else, this day is about you marrying (obvisouly) the man who is right for you!

    We live by the beach and are having a beach-y themed wedding - blues, greens, sandy/tans - I'm SO worried it's going to look kitchy/childish if I'm not careful. I started to second guess everything. I calmed down, made a list, took photos of all the pieces we had and kept a phyiscal inspiration board for myself. I had to limit how much "research" i.e. stalking style me pretty I did because it started to make me nuts! You'll be fine - everything will work out perfectly. :-)

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